I haven’t done much, lately…past year…whatever.
Seems like I have hit a brick wall, in terms of motivation that is. Anxiety is a real issue for me, but yesterday I managed to order pizza over the phone; pizza…trivial I know, but that was a feat in itself. Usually I dial, erase the number, ponder a bit about the potential outcome of the conversation, dial, hang up, dial, erase and ponder more. Could be anxiety is done ruling over me, its been a long road of constant feelings of dread and doom, lingering thoughts of whether I’d run into a scenario where ‘yeah I actually am getting yelled at…’ and maybe someday I will deserve it. But for now I am enjoying this newfound feeling of freedom where every movement, every task and situation is mine to control and weave into whatever outcome I desire!
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